Super Sad Day

6~April~2007

Never felt so sad for sooo damn long.
Gave Porchie away today to a fren of mine.
I couldn't bear to see her off and therefore i purposly stayed at Mr Foo's hse since Thursday night. I got Kenneth and Dad to send her to my frend's place.

Close frends know the reason y i had to give her away. If this thing didn't happen, Porchie will be with me foreva. N this day wouldn't have come.
For the whole of today, i've been tearing and yup, eyes are swallon like fuck.
I kept telling myself that i will get over it soon, and she's with a fren and I would be able to see her when i'm free. My frend's hse is quite near Mr Foo's house.

But the thought of not having to hear her barks and her not seeing me off at the balcony every morning, i can't help but to feel EXTREMELY sad. From now, i'm gona slp alone at night, and won't be able to see her steam looking face in the morning.

Dad called me in the afternoon and told me that he had send her to my frend's place. He started telling me that Kenneth was very sad , and all of us gota try getting used to not having her. I couldnt help and teared again. I know that if i continued listening, I won't be able to answer him back. I just told him:" I don't feel like talking about it now" and hung up the phone.

I know that Kenneth and I would be extremely sad.

I just called my fren, and he told me that Porchie is doing ok over at his house.
He fed her her fave rice with boiled meat and she ate everything up. He's finding for fleas on her body. Porchie kept disturbing his other dogs and i do hope that she will be able to get along with them.

I'm quite unstable today, can just tear out of the sudden. Mr Foo kept consoling me that things will be fine and i can go see Porchie whenever i want.
But i know that i wont be able to go visit her anytime soon, coz i know that i might just breakdown after seeing her and have the urdge to bring her back home.
I dont feel like going back home on Monday. The thought of returing back home and she is not there to greet me at the door, makes me feel very shitty.

Met Janey and Tiger at AMK to have dinner. Wonder if they had noticed my swallon eyes.

Sad day. I just lost something important to me.